blogging the day away

5/27 1:15 am. So today was way better than yesterday but I still broke out in tears a few times. It's been happening, I hate it. Last night I wanted to cry my brains out and I considered getting in the shower to do it but Kendel was still awake and I knew she would end up knocking on the bathroom door asking if I was okay. I didn't really feel like telling her I felt like there was no point in...

After a night of sleep and the opportunity to wake up with a clear head I pretty much know why I had such an awful day yesterday. For two nights in a row I couldn't sleep and I ended up only getting about 4 hours of shut eye. That's not enough sleep to reset this crazy mind of mine after a day of thinking. Imagine how much life would drag on if we never had those 6-10 hours of downtime we get...

Okay so to say I had some issues today would be putting it lightly. I had a rough ass day today. Rough as a torn up road. I contemplated deleting my blog, as I have done MANY times before, but as you see it still remains. Mostly because I can't bear the thought of writing something and not having anyone to read it. I can't even go into all the reasons I had a shit day today, but I did. I...

Ever since I started blogging about 3 years ago most of my thoughts have turned into narratives and for some reason I can almost never get them typed as awesome as they sound in my head. This morning was one of those times when my thoughts were flowing so well that I went and unhooked my computer from my entertainment center and went into my room and made an effort to get my thoughts recorded....

I don't know what's more annoying, the fact my cats come INSIDE to pee or the fact that I have four cats running in and out of my house. I love my cats, don't get me wrong but they were driving me insane so I locked them out of the house for two days. I didn't feel one bit of guilt about it either, they had food and water. It was getting insane though, I don't know what got up their asses but...

do you bring about what you think about? I have pretty much been sick for over 4 months now. It's probably definitely related to my thinking habits, my mood and my mindset of dark clouds. My mind is sick so why should my body feel any different? Why should my life feel any different? I have been stuck in this really bad spot in my head. It's pretty cozy, there is a fluffy chair...

It's late Saturday, or early Sunday depending on how you look at it. I have about 5 blog posts that are 75% finished on my desktop but here I go starting another one. Will this be the one that makes it to 100%, we shall see. I would have to say that my Saturday has been quite good. I haven't been too hard on myself and I've got a lot accomplished. It's funny though because I was sort of...